memoir

soft clearwhite skin,
blackbead eyes
no match for a vulture eye
i used to scream in my sleep.

and i would lay my face on its skin
like it were mine
cling to the coldwhite fur
they would scream.

footsteps and i'd hide
i'm asleep but i can feel
the skin on my hands
like the skin down the hall

marble eyes watching
haunting my dreams
yellow teeth bared
and i'd scream.

bits of mind

summer rain
little footsteps
soft green light, soft grey light
look up into it
water hits skin
again and again and again and again
it's warm.

soft summer clothes
worn thin and so light
breeze shreds them to pieces
it's lighter now
hands hold hands
an eye for an eye
stuck in sand
the ocean, its' clear.

bare feet in dirt
dirt in forest
forest in the rain
forever and ever
smells of pine and clean air
wet air
stuck in the pores of your skin
miles and miles and miles and miles
away from home, or house
lips on lips
you inspire me
little noises
it's still raining
can't see the sun.

dirty sefoam hair
strong hands
the rain, the rain
green and the grey
you
happened
and the ocean was clear
and the birds were our friend
and the air and our skin were the same

six second stories

0. second period generic math class
thirty students ignoring math
everyone sits in the same generic room in matching desks
their worlds are as familiar as the galaxy.
i look around.

1. water like mirrors.
i'm supposed to see through you, why can't i see through you?
i swear i'm the queen of all things bad, or was
i'm supposed to frighten you, no one's listening...

2. We're important, our problems, they're important
we're royalty in our worlds, the guilded age of lunatics.
of course all of this has a meaning.
we'll sit in the dusty sunlight
we'll talk about it.

3. your words are sweet but they're rotting my teeth.
(don't lie to me)
i'm up past three and you're killkilling me
(i promise i love you)
(i promise)

4. the lines on your lips aren't impressing anyone
wipe the words off your face
wipe the stains off your cheeks.
you're lost but we're all lost,
no one cares about your problems, no one notices either.

5. i don't want to fight i don't want to fight just listen to me just let me talk this through hear my story, this isn't about your or me i'm just tired of dealing with everything i'm worn out i'm worn down and i'm crying but just listen to me, i have something to say, i have to say something and it's stuck in my mind i'm stuck in my own mind but that's the way it always will be here and i need to get out but i can't 'cause i'm stuck, i'm stuck, i'm stuck.

6. splitting headaches fixed with sugar lips
i'm happy all the time
my place is here and now
i'm home.

regret/neglect

i'm sorry.

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i watched the stars go by last night,
the air was the same temperature as my blood.
are they lights in the dark, or holes in the sky?
just ignore science for the sake of yourself.

sometimes the worlds that aren't yours are forgotten
fearless flowers bloom into the sky,
whether you remember them or not,
if they're part of anybody's world.

i burnt my fingers and they don't feel like mine,
i'm tired and my thoughts aren't mine.
these fireworks are in the way of the stars,
fly to them, little hummingbird, fly.

8:37

And all I loved, I loved alone.